Im looking for some advice, I had a great run in 2025, I was up 1300% at some point, I slowly grinded £60K to £1M in 9 months, then I made some really stupid things, which led to more desperate moves (all in options), and i lost it all between October and December.

This year has not been kind to me, im currently down 25%, I actually had an insane start to the year, I think i was up almost 200% ytd in February, but then the Iran war started, I never got back in during April and May, so my account never recovered, by the time I got back I was June and well.. we all know how the last 3months have been.

Now the good news is I still have £100K left but psychologically I cant get over, I keep getting adverts about UK gilts at 5%, £50K a year is more then the average wage of the UK, I am in my 30s, I could've literally just retired but I threw it away like a retard

How do I get over this? I thought i did it once ill make it back again but this market has slapped me in the face more times then I can count

Has anyone else been through this? How did you get over it?

I really need help

Edit: to the people calling me a gambler. Thats the part that sucks the most. I know I will never be able to do it again, the same way, I dont want to give away what I did because it was pure gambling full porting shitcos from May 2025 until September 2025, id just full port shitcos ,double my man then do.it again, basically did it like 3 times, I made over half a million just from $NBIS alone.

But here is the tragic part, I will never do that shit again, I am so scared of losing money I literally take profits after being up a few %, i never let it ride like that. So assuming I dont lose everything, its probably going to take me 5 years to replicate that, and not to mention, this market has sucked ass outside of April and May since October