Okay so i just installed wordpress and since i learned on figma and framer (as a designer not a developper), i wanted to play around and just make my little website like i usually do it BUT, it turns out i am very limited on designing anything, I cant change the color palet, the styles (like wtf) on a free plan of a open source software.

I just want to try to understand wordpress design by my own, look for things, find them, make them look good. I dont want to pay for a host or anything either i dont give a shit about publishing my work, i just want to learn how to use it. I also heard about elementor but is there a free alternative

Is there an easy, simple and free way to do that or am i forced to pay at one point.

^{(I apologise if this question seems stupid or what but first its late and i just can't figure it out man i just want a simple answer})